When I'm am activity engaged in a creative effort (making a particular shaped earring or a free form crocheted scarf. I usually have a moment of not knowing what to do next. This "not knowing" can be scary. Of course the magnitude varies - it can be as subtle as a flash of butterflies in my stomach that I can breath through and move on. Or it's a giant wave that washes over me and distracts me from knowing what to do. At that point I usually step away and trust that I'll know what to do when I'm ready.
I find a parallel in this process of creating a piece of art as in trying to live life aware and present (as I can be in the moment).
and sometimes the unknowing is annoying and embarrassing and down right scary not to know! - that's where courage comes in - true when I'm crocheting a free form scarf as when I'm trying to be present in the moment and open to life.
I know that as I learn to tolerate the unknowing (where do I go next) and can let knowing unfold step-by-step closer to the moment when of doing - I feel a flowing, a vitality.
